Bucket List Check Mark

I did it. I met Stephenie Meyer. *SQUEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE* Last Friday, less than 10 miles from my house, @suzspetals and I attended this interview:


And afterward, we stood in a line for about 15 minutes and then, I did it. I smiled for my picture, and then I turned to Stephenie Meyer and had my minute of finally meeting her - after 8 years of obsession, nearly to the day (I fell down the rabbit hole Thanksgiving weekend, 2008), I told her what was written on my heart for her: "Because of you, I found my tribe. And they mean the world to me." I'm crying now just remembering how it felt to say that to her, at last. I choked up saying it, but I got the words out. She seemed genuinely affected by my words, looked me right in the eye, and said, "Thank you so much for telling me that. I think it's so important to have those strong female friendships, they help us get through so many challenges. Thank you."

"ZOMG, you guys, look who I'm standing next to!"

Those are my books she's touching. They are in my house RIGHT NOW. I had her sign my original copy of Twilight, and of course her new book, The Chemist, which I've just started reading. It was such a small moment in time, but I will treasure the memory forever. It seemed only right to post it here. I love you all. <3

How You Likin' the... Blazing Hot Sun, Oregon?

Hmm... not as pithy as "How you likin' the rain, Arizona?" I'll have to work on that.

HELLO!! I'm back - I think. I just noticed my last post was about how I was going to start blogging again... over 2 years ago. But, hey, I got pregnant a couple months after that and life has been a bit crazy ever since.

So, the big news is that I moved to Arizona. D got a new job, which should allow me to stay home with Z, so it was a relatively simple decision to make. The move itself was STRESS. But I think most of that has subsided now, and we're starting to settle into a sort of routine. I'm considering taking Z out to IKEA right now to get the doors to a bookcase we bought last week (the doors were out of stock when we went)... but there's no guarantee they'll be in stock this time, and so I find myself writing you lovely people instead of loading up the toddler into the van again today. I should probably just go. *sigh*

In other news, it took me 9 full days in Arizona to get a sunburn. That's pretty good. And it's only a little on the back of the base of my neck where I can't reach well, and a portion of the back of my shoulder blade that I apparently missed with my sunscreen. Alright, more later. I know this isn't the most thrilling post you've ever read. Just a dip of my toe back into the old blogging water!

Blog ReBoot

Why, hello there! Earlier this week, Demanda and Darcy staged a mini-tweet-campaign encouraging me to get back to blogging, at least about booze and food. So, at least we know their priorities are in the right places. I've been thinking about it, and I like the idea. But I think I might need to do a little housekeeping first on this old blog - you know, shake out the rugs, dust up the cobwebs... so look for that to happen this weekend. And, then, who knows?

An Open Thank You Letter to Twilight

9/26/13
Dear Twilight,
Thank you. Before you, my life was like a moonless night...

No, but seriously. What would my life be without you? Who knows where I'd be, what I'd be doing, or to whom I'd be married? Today would have been my 5th wedding anniversary in my first marriage, and instead I'm just shy of four weeks happily remarried to a wonderful man who would never begrudge me my friends or my love of you. (Geez - that kind of makes it sound like I really rushed through some things, although it didn't feel that way at the time. I regret nothing.)

 Thank you for my wonderful, crazy, my-brand-of-heroin friends. I didn't get to spend nearly enough time with them this year, but you know what? That's okay, because I'll see them again. I know that. Thank you for all of the wonderful women you've brought into my life, they mean so much to me. For whatever reason, they understand that ever since I first read you, almost 5 years ago (yep, Thanksgiving will be the anniversary of that), you have never left my thoughts or my heart. As our friendships deepen and grow throughout the years, our foundation is you: our common craziness over this silly book and movie franchise. I think it grounds us.
Forks 2010

Forks 2011

Vegas 2012 - this is the closest thing I have to a group shot
Forks 2012
Hawaii 2013

Portland 2013
 Thank you for opening my eyes to the wonderful area in which I live. I can't tell you how often these days, since I read you, I look outside and think, "Ooohhh, Forksy today," and smile happily to myself. I knew I lived in a beautiful place before I read you, but I credit you with opening my eyes and making me stop taking it for granted - yes, it's gorgeous here, and now I think I appreciate that more than I did before, even without sparkly vampires lurking behind every corner.

Twilight, thank you. I can never hear your name without getting a little giddy, even if someone is just using it as a normal word in a normal sentence. You will never just be normal to me, but who wants normal, anyway? How boring. So, thanks for making my life less boring.
Cheery Spidermonkeying near Indian Beach, 2013
~MusingBella

 P.S. Thank your Mom for me, too - I guess she had something to do with creating you. Mwah!

Whole 30: Done!

The

I did it!  ... and I'm a little disappointed.  Let me tell you where I'm coming from.

First of all, I lost 11.3 pounds, which: WAHOOOO! That, my friends, is super exciting.  I have noticed I have generally more stable moods and energy levels, which I attribute to the lack of sugar, and I am, in general, less hungry between meals. 

That's it.

I noticed no other changes.  I had gastrointestinal distress, the same as I always have, pretty much the entire time until I started taking a probiotic toward the end of the program. I did not sleep better - if anything, I slept worse most of the month.  My "seasonal allergies" seemed to go away... but then they came back, so I'm not sure they're food-related at all.  I never saw a huge burst of energy, I don't greet the day with wide eyes and a smile like some sort of cracked out Disney princess, I still crave Doritos, pizza, and chocolate... all in all, not much of a difference.

Don't get me wrong, I'm happy I lost the weight. I'd been trying to lose that weight for FOREVER.  I had tried Weight Watchers, heavy duty working out, all sorts of things, so I am glad to see it gone. My pants fit better, my muffin top is gone, that is awesome and I'm glad I did it.

Hooray! I can check out my undies without unzipping my pants at last!

I'm also aware that the fine folks over at Whole9Life say that for some people it takes more than 30 days to see "the magic," which could definitely be true, but that feels a little scam-my to me.  You know? Like, "Oh, our plan didn't work for you? That's because you didn't do it long enough. Just do ten more days... oh, that didn't work? Try ten more days..."  How long am I supposed to keep doing the plan without seeing the results I'm looking for before I give up and say the plan didn't work for me?  As Whole9Life themselves say in this post: "why would you put yourself through a program as challenging as the Whole30, only to reap a tiny portion of the rewards?" (That quote is in a different context in their post, but still applies here.) I've read their post about the reasons why it didn't work, and the conclusion I come to is that my expectations were too high. Before doing the Whole 30, I had heard or read some success stories, and thought, "That could be me!"  I also wonder if maybe I was eating better than some people pre-Whole30.  Despite my sugar addiction, I generally eat homemade, non- or minimally-processed foods, not a lot of junk food, not a lot of fast food... maybe that's why I didn't see a huge difference.  I'm not sure.

What I do know is I learned a lot of new ways to cook last month, used a lot of new ingredients I'd never used before, ate WAY more vegetables than I used to, and that D's blood sugar was way more under control than it used to be on our SAD diet.  I also know we spent more than twice our budget on groceries in January, which is not sustainable.  I added up our receipts today and we spent $670 in January on groceries. Um, what?  For two people? That can't happen again.  


Yesterday, we started reintroducing gluten grain, and so far I haven't noticed any negative effects.  I know, I know, some of them could be internal inflammation and I may not notice the effect for years, if ever.  We'll see how it goes with reintroducing the other foods later in the week.  I do know D and I intend to continue eating largely Paleo simply for the fact that his blood sugar is so much more consistent this way, and that's huge for someone with type 1 diabetes - his insulin use is way lower and it's a much healthier way for him to be.  But if anyone thinks I'm not having wine and chocolates on Valentine's Day, they're crazy.

Hello, old friends... um, what will D eat and drink?

How did your Whole 30 go?? Leave it in the comments...

Whole 30 - week 1!

Hey culinary cavewomen!  D and I are on Day 5 of our Whole 30, and so far so good!  We're both noticing some sleep issues and other things (he had a headache yesterday, I had some stomach issues and overall fatigue), but according to the forum, we're in line with what's expected, so I'm looking forward to starting to feel better and sleep better soon!  We spent too much at the grocery store today, but are looking forward to the meals we've planned out, because they sound delicious!

I've been tweeting pics of some of our meals this week, but I wanted to post some of them here, along with recipes, in case anyone needs ideas or wants to copy some of ours!

First up: butternut squash soup, simple salad, and steaks!

Gingery Butternut Squash Soup
1 butternut squash
1 onion (yellow or white)
1 bunch of leeks
ginger root
nutmeg
5 cups chicken broth

Cut a butternut squash in half, lengthwise, and use a spoon to scoop out the seeds (like you do with a pumpkin), then peel the skin off the outside and chop into as close to 1" cubes as you can.  Chop the onion and the leeks (white and green parts both).  Cut off and peel about a Tablespoon's worth of the ginger root.

Put your pot on the stove with a Tablespoon of extra virgin olive oil in it, and heat the oil.  Add in the onions, ginger, and leeks:
Onions, ginger, and leeks in olive oil

Add in the broth and squash:
Mmmm... soupy

Cook on medium heat (simmer) until the squash is tender (use your spoon to test the tenderness):
Looking good!

While the soup is simmering, season and begin to grill your steak:
Salt and pepper steak

I use a panini grill pan, because that's what I have :)

Once the squash is tender, pour as much of the chicken stock off as you can, but save it. Then (carefully) pour the veggie mixture into a food processor or blender and blend until smooth:
Blending!

Once everything is pureed, pour it back into your pot, and, over low heat, add the chicken stock back in until the consistency is how you want it:

Then add two teaspoons of nutmeg:

At this point, I chopped up some leftover Romaine and tossed it with olive oil and balsamic vinegar while the steak finished cooking.  And voila!
Dinner!

It was a really good meal, actually. Next time I make it, I'm going to grill more meat, and I'm going to cut back on the ginger and nutmeg, because I felt they overwhelmed the other flavors.  But it was still really good. The soup recipe is from Paleo Comfort Foods, which is a cookbook D bought with the Barnes & Noble gift card he got for Christmas.  We like everything we've made out of it so far!

Next up is Chicken Non-Parmesan (my own recipe)!

Preheat your oven to 350.

Homemade Tomato Sauce
1 onion, diced
2 cloves garlic, minced
1 28-oz can crushed tomatoes
1 14-oz can diced tomatoes

Ingredient roll call!

Pour two Tablespoons of extra virgin olive oil into a saucepan or wide pot and heat, then add the garlic and onions and saute until fragrant.  

Pour in both cans of tomatoes, and simmer over low heat, stirring occasionally.  I like to cover the pot with a splatter guard to minimize clean-up later.  This can pretty much simmer as long as you need it to.

That's the whole tomato sauce recipe - you can add basil and oregano, I sometimes do, to taste.

Our discovery this week: spaghetti squash!
To prepare, poke some holes in the squash, then microwave it for 5 minutes. 
That's D's finger. Do not microwave fingers.

After you take the squash out of the microwave, very carefully cut it in half, lengthwise (it's hot). Remove the seeds.  Then, take a fork and scrape it along the insides of the squash - it comes out looking kind of like angel hair pasta!  Set aside the squash once you've scraped all you can out of it.
I find this truly amazing.

The true way to make Chicken Parm involves pounding the chicken breasts, so you can totally do that. I didn't do it this time.  Dredge the chicken through a slightly beaten egg, then through coconut flour (we're using Bob's Red Mill - ingredient: coconut):
"breaded" chicken!

Heat some ghee (or clarified butter, or oil of your choice - I'll post the ghee procedure next time we make some - it is super easy) and brown both sides of your chicken (usually just a couple of minutes on each side).  

Put the chicken on a baking sheet and stick it in the oven to finish (time will vary, depending on how thick the chicken is).

Toss the spaghetti squash in a saute pan with a little oil for a few minutes.  I think I did it for about 3 minutes, it turned out fine, but could have gone longer, maybe.
 
 It looks so much like pasta!

Layer squash and chicken, then top with tomato sauce.
Yum!

 Dinner!

You could add another veggie to this dinner, if you were so inclined, but it was filling and delicious!  I'll definitely be making that again.

For Friday nights, I like to keep things really simple, so we had my only-famous-in-my-house porkchops, smashed white yams, and steamed broccoli:
I season the pork chops with garlic powder, salt and pepper.  And, yes, that's the panini grill pan again.  Mashed yams are made the same way as mashed potatoes, and I added a Tablespoon of ghee during the mashing process.  Broccoli is steaming in the  back. :)

 Simple, easy, and oh so good!

The ghee really added a great dimension to the mashed yams, which we've made before without adding it.  It cut the sweetness a little (which is already less in white yams than in the orange ones, which is why I buy them more often than I buy the orange kind), and just really enhanced the other flavors.

Now, I don't know if a traditional Whole 30-er would frown upon the fact that these last two recipes are similar to what we'd eat in our prior habits, since I'm basically just replacing pasta and white potatoes, but the way I look at it, if clean eating is going to be a sustainable lifestyle, I have to be able to eat things I find comforting and delicious, and I want to be able to use recipes I already know how to make.  The more I can incorporate my previous eating habits into paleo / Whole 30 versions, the more likely I am to continue eating this way... which I know is actually the opposite of what it says in It Starts With Food, but as they also say in there, I know myself best, and this is how it will work for me.

*steps off soapbox*

This coming week, I'll be making some chicken with mushroom sauce, meatballs with sauce and green beans, cashew chicken with cauliflower "rice," steak salad, and burgers (without buns).

So how's it going for the rest of you who are doing the Whole 30?  What have you been eating and enjoying?  Happy cooking! Mwah!!

Happy New Year and the Whole 30 Challenge


Well, hello there, 2013! It has been a looooong time since I put anything up on this here blog, and what better excuse to start back up something you've been missing than the turn of the year?  So, hello there, welcome back, good to see you!

As you may or may not have seen on Twitter, D and I started the Whole30 today!  Some others are joining us throughout the next week, Demanda and Jaymes, Lindsay Rae, Myg, and blue_darcy are all on board, there might be some others I've forgotten or don't know about.  Basically the Whole30 is like Paleo eXtreme - you eat mostly meats, veggies, fruits, and some good fats and nuts... only things Paleolithic Man would have been able to eat, with a heavy emphasis on organic items.  I'm doing it to figure out what food allergies I have once and for all, while D is doing it because he's a type 1 diabetic and is looking to gain control over his blood sugar levels.  We're also both looking to drop some weight and be overall healthier... and I need to kick my carb addiction.  So, here we go!


I thought I would try to use the blog as a good place to post recipes and foods, and as an added level of accountability (I tend to need a lot of that to stick with things).  Today is Day 1, and we've done pretty well! Fruit and eggs with turkey for breakfast, leftover chicken stew (with all approved ingredients) for lunch, and for dinner I made ground turkey wraps - using Romaine leaves as the wraps.  I had homemade guacamole leftover from yesterday (avocados, red onion, cilantro, lime juice, cumin, and salt), all-natural salsa, ground turkey, homemade taco seasoning, and the lettuce leaves (organic, of course).  We ate them like tacos, and they were delicious!  There's also enough left to make a sort of taco salad for tomorrow's lunch, which sets us up for success for Day 2.  Hooray!

I intend to post some pictures and recipes going forward, but I'm tried today and bummed about having to go back to work tomorrow (I had 11 days off over the holidays), so it won't happen today.  But look forward to D's baba ganoush recipe, how to make ghee, and other fun stuff in the next 30 days!  And I hope you all had a happy new year! Any resolutions?